Tuesday, April 27
the right kind of ignorance is to ignore them.
thought today's gonna be dead and laggy.couldnt drag myself out of bed this morning after a first-time full EIGHT hours of sleep.
but well,so far so good.just made a sad,angry and "black-faced" girlfren cheer up =) Studio Project turns out not to be that bad afterall except that you have lots of other "eyes" peeking at your computer screen now and then,to check up on each other or just self-distracting from work. haha. even now,i have to constantly minimise this window to avoid other stray eyes from reading. lol*
and yesteday's "Operation Surprise Gift" worked too. bought him this soft toy cat and pakat2 with his lab fren TQ* to place it on top of my dear's computer when he's not around.boy, did he get the shock and surprise of his life when he saw it! ;) its currently his "Pirate Cat/P.C." now.hahaha. 'twas a gift of appreciation and love for him for treating me to two movies last week: the wacky duo,"Starsky and Hutch" & the humorous and must-watch "50 First Dates". Drew Barrymore looks really gorgeous in there.and Rob Schenieder's acting as the hawaiian horny dad rocks! ;) 'twas also a gift for standing by me after the incident *muakZ*
happy happy day. =) have learnt to ignore those mean people.have learnt to ignore evil people who enjoyed seeing others being hurt too.ok,my team partner just suggested,those people equal to SADISTIC people.damn right he is. hahahaha. (i failed to hide this blogger window worr.. die!)
happy happy day~~~
aint no one gonna bring me down!
that kitty next door falls from the sky again 4/27/2004 12:50:00 PM
Saturday, April 24
what a screwed up society!
me against them?
nah.its them whose seriously screwed up.the society and their sterotyped beliefs and traditions.
why do some people just cant mind their own business? you wanna tell off a stranger for doing something you think its not right when you yourself are at the Sins Pub, screwing your own moral values. it doesnt seem right.
and it sucks and disappointing to know and come to realize that just because you're a muslim and you wear the tudung(*Especially with the ban on tudung uproar in France now), you are being scrutinized more closer and in depth than those who dont. what is wrong here,you tell me? you close one eye on those girls in their short mini-shirts and tubes, looking almost naked but you blast a girl just because she's wearing a tudung. how biased you can get, oh freaking stupid society of mine?? ah sighs. *throws up hands*
lets just dont bother and shut our ears from these society critics and hypocrites. you are forgiven,oh fat kepo woman,wherever you are,you and your slimebucket husband of yours. i leave to Allah for any payback or watsoever, im not gonna go up to you and argue my stand anymore neither am i gonna stuff your mouth with bowling balls. im just gonna step aside, pull my dear aside too, and leave this to Allah cuz He's more Powerful and Just than anyone or anything.
how i wish im four again!
that kitty next door falls from the sky again 4/24/2004 02:10:00 AM
Wednesday, April 21
a very special friend turns 19 today =) and this is made especially for her..
May God bless you,babe!
i feel a bit pissed cuz i cant meet her up today.. stupid, stupid
STUDIO PROJECT. sorry miss WITCH :( extremely busy these days too. but heee,managed to sneak in some time for a Starsky and Hutch movie on monday after STUDIO PROJECT,a delightful surprise treat from
him for our 1 yr 6 mths anniversary.oh sighs.... romantik betul orang tu *winks2*
D'accord,d'accord,back to my STUDIO PROJECT.three weeks of this 9-5pm lab torture and im a free woman.notice STUDIO PROJECT is in CAPS? yeah. bleaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
that kitty next door falls from the sky again 4/21/2004 01:58:00 PM
Friday, April 16
pain and ice-cream
lately ive been looking at other couples and going "ooh how sweet,how nice..". what is wrong with me??sighs. anyway juz now i tot i was going to take the train home alone again but thank God,while waiting for eliz to top up her card,friends came piling in from nowhere. started the commotion "eh nini!!--wei mira,tot u go home already?--eh,you still here ah?" so turned out i had company afterall,haha. even met clarence,told me he went to play frisbee or going to play frisbee,i dont know,i didnt catch it,sorry,hahaha.
and its becoming a routine for me and eliz to eat that 25cents macdonalds' ice-cream after finishin our work around 8/9pm+ in skool.' a treat for ourselves"-like she put it. sure works,haha. i feel more you know,fuzzy and relieved while licking that ice-cream and caring bout nothing in the world.im sure gonna miss lil lovely moments like these when i graduate from this skool,sighs.
and oh,kena 'hit" by some mat motors on the way home.oh whatever.*rolls eyes* so what if one of them has this big,beautiful green and black motorbike?haha. okaay,i WAS thinkin of the transportation use if i get to know them,haha. im very mean,yeah.*changes topic* Ehhhh.. Domenation gig today ah!!some of my ex-fuchun sec skoolmates comin down too!think ill just hang around for a while,show my face to hafiz for support of his band,then ciao to do work.
so at least i have a little bit of life,sheesh.
nites people.
that kitty next door falls from the sky again 4/16/2004 12:08:00 AM
Tuesday, April 13
emptiness.
for a special someone:
i'm not a perfect person,
there are many things i wish i didn't do
but i continue learning
i never meant to do those things to you
and so i have to say before i go, that i just want you to know
i've found a reason for me,
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new,
and the reason is you ..
i know ive posted these lyrics before but this time,i think i really mean it. it totally describes what im going through now and i have to be strong. it sucks being strong when you know you're hurting yourself and the one you love but i think its for the best. i hope this painful phase will just get itself done and over with. cuz at the end of the day,i just wanna be with you and forget about any decisions or pact we've settled on. but i have myself to deal with first so the loved one will have to wait. i'll come back when im ready. whenever that "ready" is, i hope its at this right second cuz im missing you terribly. be strong,munirah.
there are days when i wish that invisible friend would be visible now. or maybe she's just too scared to face this harsh world too.*shrugs shrugs*
that kitty next door falls from the sky again 4/13/2004 12:58:00 PM
Sunday, April 11
child ABUSE.
this morning,i came out from my cold shower and saw my mum carrying a baby at the front door. i was so shocked. and thought,hey am i still sleeping or what huh?? a baby..in my house? then i heard my next-door neighbour talking(in her kepo-makcik way as usual,lol.) so yep,turned out to be my neighbour's babysitting baby. yes,my neighbour is a part-time babysitter or something.illegal,legal,i've no idea so whatever. the point now is the baby himself. akmal.what a sweet,memorable name. (*winks at WITCH if you're readin this,babe!*)
so yep,he's incredibly cute.i met him(my mum was so keen on me seeing the baby,sheesh) and i immediately kissed him on the forehead. couldnt resist it lah. too cute for words! but he looked too fragile. and sick. disease-sick. okay,ive got this phobia for babies.them lil tots. im scared that i'll drop them when im holding them. its a traumatic childhood experience thingy. loong story *groans* anyway back to it, when my mum finally returned a sleeping akmal to my delighted neighbour(who can do her housework in peace now tat the lil tot is sleepin),she revealed to me that the baby's mother is a child-abuser. i was really aghasted. i mean, a mother who beats the hell out of her child and even gives permission to the babysitter to beat her own son too?!! what madness is this?? you see,akmal has a big brother of 2 years. and that kid is seriously sick. as in,his mind is totally gone.after beating sessions from his own mother,i guess. poor thing!! and the baby is affected too,obviously. heard that the mother doesnt even feed him sometimes. WAD THE!!!
what kind of a mother is that??? how could she do such a monstrous thing?? and she's a teacher too!!! masyallah.. i am soo againt child abuse. or anykind of abuse. i mean,if you're too stressed or whatever shit, then dont vent it on your poor innocent child. imagine how the traumatic child gonna cope when he/she grows up... *sighs* what has this world become to?
on a lighter note,went to see Hellboy yesterday at suntec city. wanna say a special thank you for a special someone who makes such wonderful effort yesterday too. and i enjoyed myself, no matter the blisters on my feet.(stupid me wore heels.) will post some special pix when i get my hands on them (*hint hint to someone,lol*)
will end this by a "i love you.. you love me... we are happy family" to sameer.. he hates that purple barney. hah!
whatever. dont feel sooo appreciative suddenly. why should i when the other doesnt? you know,sometimes, i think,he rather goes out with his gang than me. *rolls eyes* maybe ive become so boring afterall.whatever. *sobs*
that kitty next door falls from the sky again 4/11/2004 04:13:00 PM
Thursday, April 8
chicky workaholic chic. um whatever.
work has never been this in control in my life before. (exaggeratedness??)
it doesnt affects only me,its driving everyone around me into crazy monkeys too. just take a look at my msn nick (yesterday i went into msn in the name of work discussion). and even rushing to Peace centre(design student's printing port at Dhoby Ghaut) at around 830pm from "cheong-ing" in school in the name of work too. i.am.going.nuts.because.of.WORK!
arghhh.
on the other hand, surfed the net for "chic girl" for absolutely zero reason. just bored and suffering from after-work migraines,i guess. and look what i found! simply,simply gorgeous.
Uptown hand bag from Jordi Labanda. To view more of his design's gorgeousity, click here
the designer's a spanish and a "high-end fashion illustrator"too.hmmm i wanna be like him! hmm ..right. *looks at what ive accomplished for my portfolio so far and hears the crows weeping for me* (exaggeratedness again??)
tomorrow is a public holiday! yay,yay! at last something to look forward to!
(tomorrow's destinations choices: 1. watch Hildago with my sis and
brader kecik fazree. heard that he's treating us?! 2. eat pizza hut with family; parents gonna treat after i jokingly suggested to them to bring me to pizza since they reckon im too skinny. sheesh.parents! i love them =) 3. make some plans to spend quality time wif
him since we have not been together on a real date for quite a long time.
decisions,decisions.
why not all of them?? *grins*
that kitty next door falls from the sky again 4/08/2004 02:33:00 PM
Tuesday, April 6
when feelings go ugly..
dont wish to talk. dont wish to smile. dont wish to pretend that nobody's listening. dont wish to do anything. dont wish to bother. or even care.
now tell me, what wishes have i got for you to succumb to?
ugly,ugly feelings.
the feeling of being redundant in others presence.
the feeling of knowing the fact that someone feels forced into something he/she doesnt want to.
the feeling of being unwanted.
the feeling of being disregard.
the feeling of stupidity.
the feeling of someone thinking what you're doing is not right.
*sighs*
im going to get over this tomorrow,just wait and see.
that kitty next door falls from the sky again 4/06/2004 12:05:00 PM
Sunday, April 4
Explode!
heh. gd morning nocturnal blogfolks.
am extremely lazy to create a picture for this new layout so im sticking with the default one instead.kinda pretty actually; the pop art graphic. wish i can do something like that but it turns out something like that self-potrait over the left corner there.hmmmm. pure illustrator n some photoshop brushes,nothing much. *shrugs* wish i can do something more.. outstanding? nevermind.
speaking of which, what have happened to the beauty standard in Singapore?? once again,the results for Miss Singapore '04 was sore disappointing.im sorry,if the winner's your cousin or best friend or stepmother,but she seriously needs makeover. so she can speak good English. so? thats the only plus point i can extract from her,nothing else. my father comes to a conclusion that she's probably the young wife-to-be of the apek president of the pageant.hahaha. my father's a lameass sometimes but he never fails to make the whole family laugh. and sam figured that if he has a daughter,he definitely wont encourage her to join Miss Singapore cuz its only for the ugly. what the?? haha sheesh*
really slacky weekend so far. felt funny rotting at home on saturday cuz normally i wont even be seen at home on that day. heh. its called "catching-with-your-own-self" time and it's been a long time since ive done that.
*eats chocolate and watches tv alone*
that kitty next door falls from the sky again 4/04/2004 01:57:00 AM
