dont care and dont ever wanna give a damn *smiles*
this is for all fervent bloggers out there.
do you need to please people for what you write on your blog?
no.
your blog is your blog. go blog watever you want there. whether you want to discuss how you spent the day slacking or you're suicidal and wanna kill yourself or you just hate that bitch who has that cute jLo ass, you just go ahead and blog about it *smiles again*
if you bother too much about what other people think,you'll just drive yourself to the wall. it'll turn you upside down crazy. dont make the internet and its twists of evildoings to you and your life. you open that blogsite for a reason,its for YOU to write down your thoughts and feelings. not something to please everybody or create wars or etc etc.or follow my fren rad's advice,when you're really depressed,dont even touch blogger. *grins*
i've been like blogging since two years ago,and ive been doing it my way. i get remarks,comments,bitchy tags,hatemail,fanmail,words of motivation and love. and yes,i've been thru lots of downs from ups ever since i started blogging but im not quitting yet.it's part of life,you see. this bloggin thingy.
i dont care if no one likes or wants to read what i blog cuz like i said,its already been part of my life. its like,getting a D for ur assignment and u still have to move on to the next year of skool life cuz..its part of the package.
juz remember, you're still being loved no matter the nasty remarks you get from people you tot you could trust and treasure aight? people come and go. but those who truly love you dont go,they stay and nag and still laugh with you no matter how selfish or annoying or bitchy you are.cuz these are the people who understand the real you the most. *hugs these people*
so yep,wow,hahaha. serious and jiwang je tag hari ni eh? sorry hah,hehe. enjoy ur weekends,fellas! cant wait to meet my beloved people =) *muakzZzz*
addiction of the day: lots and lots of coughs and flus. and gas masks.
Friday, July 30
Wednesday, July 28
quick updates
fever on last sunday AND monday. first time sick in my third year. maybe it was all that rage. or maybe it was I-Robot on last friday. hmm.
and..
i've got a job. ive got a job. ive got a freaking job!
tuesdays,from 2 to 9pm.
million thanks to zedd.
sdn club tea party cancelled today.
sheeezh.
ive got a job. ive got a job. ive got a job.ive got a job. ive got a job. ive got a job.ive got a job. ive got a job. ive got a job.ive got a job. ive got a job.
IVE GOT A FREAKING JOB!
addiction of the day: sweet lovely voicemails from HP number 9-8-triple4-sembilan-2-satu =)
fever on last sunday AND monday. first time sick in my third year. maybe it was all that rage. or maybe it was I-Robot on last friday. hmm.
and..
i've got a job. ive got a job. ive got a freaking job!
tuesdays,from 2 to 9pm.
million thanks to zedd.
sdn club tea party cancelled today.
sheeezh.
ive got a job. ive got a job. ive got a job.ive got a job. ive got a job. ive got a job.ive got a job. ive got a job. ive got a job.ive got a job. ive got a job.
IVE GOT A FREAKING JOB!
addiction of the day: sweet lovely voicemails from HP number 9-8-triple4-sembilan-2-satu =)
Saturday, July 24
its a wonder how someone can make you pissed so easily.
just like that. snap snap.
and make you forget the word "happy" do exists in your dictionary.
what a stupid saturday.
even missed my morning cartoons.
listening to Hoobastank's Did You over and over again.
Did you find what you're looking for?
Did you get your foot in the door?
Can you look at yourself and feel proud of all the things you've done?
Did you inspire the ones that you knew?
Make a difference to those who knew you?
Did you finally figure out what it is that makes us who we are today?
Don't waste another day
To know when or will you get by
Don't waste another day
To do anything you haven't done..
i am seriously not feeling my best today.
my esteem is at the maximum lowest.
broke. bored. pissed. real pissed.
you folks go on and enjoy your weekends.
dont bother about me. i'll most probably recuperate overnight..
or something.
addiction of the day: raw anger.
just like that. snap snap.
and make you forget the word "happy" do exists in your dictionary.
what a stupid saturday.
even missed my morning cartoons.
listening to Hoobastank's Did You over and over again.
Did you find what you're looking for?
Did you get your foot in the door?
Can you look at yourself and feel proud of all the things you've done?
Did you inspire the ones that you knew?
Make a difference to those who knew you?
Did you finally figure out what it is that makes us who we are today?
Don't waste another day
To know when or will you get by
Don't waste another day
To do anything you haven't done..
i am seriously not feeling my best today.
my esteem is at the maximum lowest.
broke. bored. pissed. real pissed.
you folks go on and enjoy your weekends.
dont bother about me. i'll most probably recuperate overnight..
or something.
addiction of the day: raw anger.
Wednesday, July 21
trust comes with a cause.. love.
maybe its just me but i seriously think that the apeks & nyonyas at nyp server hates my guts.
prejudiced basketcases.
they blocked both my beloved e-messenger AND blogger. how come my fren can log in hers?
this is so not fair. no more blogging/msn during/before/after lessons? these wonderful babies keep me awake in fact. without them,ill be dozing away.
i mean,a normal human's attention span is what,45 minutes?
with a 3hrs 3D class,no way am i gonna stay awake like a jack-in-a-box. BAH.
all the same,after today,i realized that i owe apologies everywhere to people whom ive eaten with. big time apologies. hahahahaha. not that it matters but to keep up with someone whose an extremely s-l-o-w eater (eg. ME) takes great patience. haha.
i tried analysing the root of this problem. and here are the possibilites.
a) i look around too much. biase,kepo =p
b) i munch and swallow like a fake-teeth grandma
c) my mouth doesnt open wide enuff to put a whole fishball inside
d) i talk too much?
e) i have a small tank and a small processor(?!)
f) face it,im just slow la!
so wad do you think eh? gimme your answers and get a free gift in return*!
addiction of the day: naughty kitten climbers.
* gifts not refundable neither are they existing. heh
Monday, July 19
"im on the,top of the world"
(skip this entry if you juz got dumped/fight wif matair/wanna screw anything to do wif love. dont say i didnt warned ya.)
so this is how one of my happiest day in my life begins.
on the way to yck mrt station,from nyp,after my french lesson.
sameer: how come you're not wearing any rings?
moi : cuz i dont feel like wearing them?
s: oohhhh. *face changes a bit*
i didnt know where that will lead to then. i didnt even know what he has planned for me. i left it all to him. everything's supposed to be a surprise. i juz have to take all in like a pampered bitch. memang sangat melampau kau ni,nini. wakakaka.
surprise number 1
late breakfast @ BK, burlington square. we sat down,then his face became erm,serious.
s: dear,i wanna give u something,cuz you're my wife and gonna be the mother of my children.. etc etc.(somethin like tat,i cant remember cuz i was too bedazzled,heh.) *takes out a silver box*
moi: (dlm hati) siak aahhhhhhhhhhh..... Oh MY GOD!!
couple ring!! my God. silver and oh oh oh oh. engraved with his "nini *heartshaped* sam" and mine "sam *heartshaped* nini". cant describe how i was feeling. faham2 saje la. heh.nini,you bitch you. heh. macam engagement gitu. he's crazy,this fella. dah buang tebiat betul. muaks muaks muaks!
surprise number 2
after all the gushing and swooning, he blurted out the next surprise.
s: we gonna watch a movie! mean girls!
whoaaa???? hahahahaha. chick flick baby. finally!sshh..hope my sis doesnt read this one. heh. well,turned out bugis airing quite late so we went to somerset. postphoned number 2 after surprise number 3 which erm.. freaked me out. yeah. erm. eeek.
surprise number 3
first pool lesson. *seram seram* recalled witch's experiences,freaked out more.
expert at work. he's good at distracting too =p i had major fun. again again again!
surprise number 4
he kept me in major suspense for this final one. that eedjit. seriously felt like taking out his eyeballs after scaring me on this. heheh.
swensons! mahal. he paid again. actually for almost everything,he belanja. *sighs*
sedaaaap. yum yum.
THANK YOU SAMEER AB KADIR. i know you're one eccentric abang polis hensem splurging your money on someone like me. no,dont frown at me like that,hahaahaha. *meows*
Happy 1 year 9mths anniversary aye?
(p.s: love,we spent almost 10 hours together,the longest time record ever since you're in NS. on habis!)
yippee! im gonna grin my way thru this whole week. heeheeehee.
so dont freak out if you see me smiling to myself like an idiot in nyp's south canteen.
im juz recalling happy,happy moments with someone i love so much =)
Saturday, July 17
"finally a man worth killing" -blardy Saxon.
yesterday night saw me at King Arthur's Dark Ages time.
heh.
i rode the horses with his beloved knights, gazed into Lancelot's lovely eyes, danced with Guinevere's beauty and almost tasted freedom.
lost?
hahaha. King Arthur the movie was freaking good despite the reviews you read around you.
dont bother with them. go watch yourself and be the judge aye?
as for me,a medieval freak,i enjoyed myself immensely.
was glued to the screen till the end. though the intro part was a bit slow and confusing for some, the story got better as it moves on and King Arthur's brotherhood with his knights was quite moving. Kudos to Knight Bors' humor and sarcasm,heh.
and the mysterious and deadly Knight Tristan's shaggy hairdo plus his hawk adds lively characteristic to the show.
the gruelling Saxon warriors were okay too,as the big,bad people.
that bald son looks like Brad Pitt at first glance! you know,Brad pitt in fight Club? bald and clad in that fur coat? yeah. yeaaah. haaha.
i think you gotta read the legend itself to get yourself into the action but sadly,the movie doesnt really follow of books ive read of this great man and the knights of the round table. and Merlin was disappointing. where is his wizard powers, you director Fuqua?
he's not some old withering man dwelling in the forest. sheezh.
and the part about Arthur pulling out the sword from his father's grave?? ermm. history check.
i tot arthur became King after he pulled out the famous sword in the stone? whats this about avenging his parents' death and all? *shrugs* is king Arthur even real??? *thinks thinks*
last but not least,Lancelot rocks. cocky,confident but vulnerable. check out that goatee! lol. so what if he lose guinevere to arthur? he died for her,literally. the handsome goondu wouldnt have died if he hadnt saw her fighting one on one with that --- oops too much info.heehee.bottomline is, his ending got me almost crying.
cutie pie with two swords!
she's gorgeous la,without a doubt.
addiction of the day: Chilvary knights. and you,my love. welcome home!
Wednesday, July 14
of all the days.
why why today?
floppy disk screwed on me. and my assignment due today is inside there. not only that,it jammed MY comp and the teacher's comp. wow. grand exit,this blardy floppy. could have use my thumb drive if it aint for that old almost-retired home computer. hah.
welcome back to skool and assignment frustrations,munirah.
haizzz.
am addicted to Insaniquarium!
:: http://www.freshpulp.com/fishtank ::
could have gotten to level 5 if that monster didnt eat up all my fishes. bah. hands hurting from clickin the mouse too much.
kak shar showed me this
:: http://gallery.cybertarp.com/albums/userpics/11240/jambublogger.jpg ::
yesterday.
am freakin shocked to see my face there. then the beautiful name Naura comes to mind.. hehehe. *covers face with underwear* lol(no i dont,just jokin!). kudos to lady naura for her lil project x! heheee.
eh look,almost 5. must get my fat ass to the stage arts' interview. hope to see more cutie pies coming down this year. theatre management certainly needs more bachelors,rite kinah? ;)
Sunday, July 11
im bored. BORED on a sunday.
going to the pasar malam at sembawang again. heehee.
watched spidey boy again yesterday,this time with him.
he said his bunk mates want my number so that they can tumpang me on their motorbikes to school.
how sweet. hahahaha.
well,no one can ride with me other than you,sweetie.
and thats the absolute truth.
no more confusion about anything.
And when the world is on its knees with me its fine
And when I come to the rescue I get nothing but left behind
Everybody seems to be getting what they need, where's mine
‘Cause your what I need so very but im anything but ordinary
addiction of the day: Train's ordinary.
going to the pasar malam at sembawang again. heehee.
watched spidey boy again yesterday,this time with him.
he said his bunk mates want my number so that they can tumpang me on their motorbikes to school.
how sweet. hahahaha.
well,no one can ride with me other than you,sweetie.
and thats the absolute truth.
no more confusion about anything.
And when the world is on its knees with me its fine
And when I come to the rescue I get nothing but left behind
Everybody seems to be getting what they need, where's mine
‘Cause your what I need so very but im anything but ordinary
addiction of the day: Train's ordinary.
Friday, July 9
playing with the djinn's flame.
the ancient Suuds people believed that when you find your shilshadu deep within you, you'll be able to talk to fire and animals and the rocks.
you'll be able to tell fire not to burn you.
sorcery?
no,they said. anyone can do it.its like meditation.
hmmm... ilmu shir ke? na'uzubillah.
im supposed to go out today. but im pretty much broke. and i have to save cash for tomorrow. my pardon,girlfrens and thanks for understanding.
im drained out. i feel like screaming. i dont know why. something still stays incomplete. what izzit?
someone's trying to tell me something. or is he? maybe hes just concerned as a friend. *shrugs*
im happy with HIM.
so shoo. stop making my feelings jinxed up.
Copa america is so boring. cam takder spirit lagi nak tengok bola after euro. hm.
addiction of the day: desert magic.
Tuesday, July 6
go ace it,love.
yesterday i started my final last year in nyp.
the day before and before,i was panicking and swearing at the TOs of nyp.
i lose count of the number of frens i passed my account to check my timetable.
the damn server was still down till the next day. i continued my convulsion towards the TOs and went to skool like a blind bat,just knowing from another friend that i have french2 at 8am and thats that.
"Au jourd'hui Monique, c'est le lendi 5 juillet 2004."
oh yeah. my new french teacher's not bad though his jokes are bit lame. lol.
after class,me and eliz charged to the TO counter with black clouded faces. and well, they in return were smiling and shaking their heads "we're not charge of the server,please go to Blk A to blablablalbla or go to your mentor to blablablA". ah freak you banana butts.
after much troubles, we got them finally and werent we pleased to see such lovely timetables. i've officially no lessons on tuesdays AND fridays. beat that. night class on thurdays? no problemo. after 1 year of separation due to our diff specializations,me and eliz are back in the same class! weee. scriptwriting gonna be one hell of a joyride. and we treated ourselves well by spending the rest of the day in town, splurging on nice nice little items. Mango ader sale siyot. lol.
sam's having his napfa test today. if he passes this,he's gonna have 1 month of rest before he starts his BMT. isnt that wonderful? *beams beams*
addiction of the day: durians. big yellow fleshy ones.
Friday, July 2
pop,pop that thang.
yesterday saw me at sameer's house playing with pe'ah/comel.
she is simply the cutest thing alive. sooo frisky. run here,bump there,jump this, pounce that.
crazy kitten,hahaa.
sakeena and me got exhausted instead. ahahaha.
tu dier,under the sofa.
thats her so-called hideout,i think.
had to lure her out with benda yang bergoyang2. just move something in front of her and she'll pounce on it like a tiger. even your fingers. haaaa.
she's gonna grow up good.
sameer's mom was making chocolate cake too. we girls tried to help,lol.
making cake is exhausting than playing with a super hyper active kitten,i found out.
but it was worth it cuz the cake was scrumptious.
too bad sameer wasnt around.
ah
i understand all this and im adapting to it painfully but successfully. i go out with my family and friends to forget my worries and i still think about him but it isnt that painful when you have friends and family around you.im not whining that he's not around to send me to skool n bla bla. i carry on with life and make the best out of it. its not that i dont love him to the extremity,i do,and thats the problem i've discovered.and im not gonna make love an excuse for anything lame like the downfall of my life or something.hahaha. so yep,thanks to all of you for your care and concern,real appreciate it =)
ah sheezh,now i feel like just deleting the whole big chunk up there cuz i dont wanna start any rubbish with anybody. the last time i did,i lose a special friend. aaarrgh.
on the other hand,my bro's BIG day tml. he's gonna march for SYF. wish i could watch. all the best,you monkey.you make us zulkeplyians* proud.
*zulkeplyians - zulkeply is my father's name. like a family name la.
addiction of the day: aromatheraphy.
Thursday, July 1
breathe easy,boy. you're doing it wrong.
msn's really active tonight.
and my darling called twice today.
so i forgave him for not telling me that he was released from 530-930 today.
it was too short to meet up last minute anyway.
*curses the military government for the umpteenth time*
nevermind,saturday night will be my night.
weeeee.
spideyboy,here i come :)
i'll be true, i'll be useful...
i'll be cavalier...i'll be yours my dear.
and i'll belong to you...
if you'll just let me through.
this is easy as lovers go,
so don't complicate it by hesitating.
and this is wonderful as loving goes,
this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?
Dashboard confessionals - As Lovers Go.
thanks to the loony kenneth for being the mp3s distributor on msn. hey,i got to give him credit here cuz he's already thinking of charging per song. geeez.
and ive got a new haircut. tuesday saw me and my sis at some saloon doing our hair.
my mother spoilt us crazy,i swear.
we had our hair trimmed,shampooed,washed and head massages.
we were like some rich tai tai's kids or sth.
thats the thing about my mother,she's never stingy with her money and though we're not that wealthy,i think my food is more delicious than some millionaire's kid's food.
cuz there's love in there.
love.
addiction of the day: dashboard confessional's lyrics.