funny, i did remembered saying, "happy tagging"?
then all of the sudden some minah,okay even minahs act way better than this,some woman who thinks "sial" is the best profanity she can produce gets all the fun on my new board. lol.
some passerbys,think they know you so well just by reading one of your posts.
which is really sad.
we bloggers know the truth. we have our confidantes outside bloggerworld and we dont need to reveal everything up on the net. well if we want to, then FINE, its our damn site anyway. so why do passerbys care so much? and think so much too?
sheesh.
anyway, welcome to my fan club!=) ive never said im pretty or anything so you're seriously backlashing your own words there. you know what? woohoo,whatever!
ive got other important things to care in my life really.
like thirst.
no matter how much i drink, i still get thirsty.
i read off a book somewhere, that one of the signs of near-death is incurable thirst.
time wont wait, you know.
by friday, i think ill be gone?
if not gone from this world but maybe from sight and hearing.
blee and both of my eyes are like, swollen swollen.
i need to get well and get my pay @ Kumon!
Tuesday, May 31
Monday, May 30
*** btw ive found out tat most of my posts i tagged on others' myshoutboxes didnt get shown on their tagboards.which is darn frustrating. ive tested this on mine and got the same result?! so ive changed tagboard, thanks to izah's cbox! well, happy tagging~
a broken rose.
almost everyone all around me is down with some sickness.
as for me, i forced myself to get out of that bed and switch on this comp.
its been almost two days of spending most of my time in that bed.
its horrible,i tell you.
first it was flu, then the raging fever started, now it bonuses with wheezing cough.
and to make matters more worse, i tend to think too much.
think of this, that, those.
physical pain plus emotional pain equals to a person being very very sick.
and i doubt ill get any better any sooner.
maybe the sickness will fade away but this heartache?
now i know, the most painful hardship a woman has to face, is to face abandonedness from her most utter loved one.
i even have delusions of my phone ringing.
now and then, i will glance at the stupid old phone, but the screen remains as the dumb butterfly screensaver.
and my sister is worried about the frequent cryings at nightimes.
ask the person responsible for it, my dear sis.
for i have no more will to comfort myself in anything anymore.
ITS NOT FAIR. what the hell did i do to deserve this huh?
hadnt i been there for you when you were down in the pits and no one else knew?
*throws up hands*
i see couples and i feel like sticking my whole hand into my throat and just throw up.
ITS NOT FAIR. JUST NOT FAIR.
Friday, May 27
am still waiting.
be4 anything, the last entry was courtesy of sam who helped me posted my "MIA",thanks a million.
I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO TALK ABOUT!
you wouldnt imagine my relief and joy when this comp is finally repaired today!
thank you father!
phew.
albeit the fact that most of my stuff(past working files,PICTURES!etc) are GONE.
right now, i need you if you have,
1. Adobe Photoshop CD
2. Illustrator CD
to lend me please? i need to install these.
latest news in my life other than being jobless & hanging?
me and eliz terrorized Sentosa yesterday *grins*
whooopah.
more pics will be up once i get hold of photoshop & scan the rest of 'em.
we were hit by a Bombay tourist crowd in the bus, got hit by very determined desperados on the beach and a couple "getting it on" in the sea.
life's a beach, definitely =)
i'll do anything to stay in the sea like a happy mermaid, without a care in this world.
like i said, ive SO MANY things to talk about but i think i'll stop here for the meantime.
or else ill continue talking about unneccessary stuff that'll get me to nowhere.
p.s.: i'm waiting here for you. no matter how busy you are. no matter how tired and pissed you are. i will still wait.
Monday, May 23
i won't be able to blog for some time bcoz my com is down...
Wednesday, May 18
call-up girl.
i thank God you're finally back to being sane.
i thank Him i can hear your laughter again.
you know the gap between your head and your shoulders?
the neck la, specifically. (sheesh.)
that was how close i almost lost someone during the weekends.
(okaaay, i cant think of anything else for a drastic comparison =p)
its terrifiying.
imagine not having a neck and having my head connected to my shoulder instead?
we will all look like sea monsters of the 21st century!
in summary,i cant risk losing my neck, and i cant risk losing you. *hugs u tightly*
to Ang Mo Kio, can you revamp yourself pretty please?
after work yesterday me and eliz walked around the "hip" estate like escaped convicts/eccentrics, with no idea what to do.
cuz all the shops are closed before 11 and the pool place there... lets just say, we dont want to give wrong ideas you know?
so in the end we sat at the mrt station, imagining that this out-of-place orange bulb at the exit is actually a anti-terrorism laser device and the commandos are camouflaged with the station's glasses and the advertisements boards.
oh, eliz even went to explain in great detail how the standing ad boards will change themselves into a gun machine too.
we also imagined michael jackson coming down from the sky, singing "Beat It~~~"
ask eliz, she can do a perfect imatation of him in that song.
LOL. so help us please AMK. dont let our imaginations run too wild again.
go make yourself into a Genting(minus the weather) or something.
we want entertainment!!
NEXT ENTRY: TELEMARKETING AND ITS HELL MINIONS.
p.s. how sweet of you to greet me "Happy 2 years 7 months anniversary" first.
i was about to call you in my nicest telemarketeer tone. heh. dan jugak the call pagi2 buta tadi, sungguh manis la awak~ aww aww! ;)
Sunday, May 15
overloaded.
its funny how ironic letters can come by.
the day i got my rejection letter from NIE, ITE sent this letter offering me to sign up a lecturer position with them.
oh well.
should i?
might as well grab whatever opportunities thrown at me.
i made a pinkish layout for my lil sis out of.. ahem sisterly love.
u can check it out @ pierceheart.blogspot
im still terribly confused about what you're going through now.
but im definitely stronger.
cuz i know its my turn now. to stay strong and stay by you.
no matter how much you dont want me to get involved.
i wont give up.
back to 19th october 2002. almost three years ago.
and i cant ask for anything more..
than to have him here with me...
and that little,sparkling rainbow,
radiating happiness on the sea...
temporary job starts tomorrow. thanks to gong =)
i badly need cash.
dont anybody?
Saturday, May 14
my all.
the state of being LOST has never usurped me before.
it felt like fucking shit.
it felt like as if your soul is being ripped by a strong force of black nothingness.
like a sparrow being crippled by its wings.
but i still have faith. and i believe in you. and Him.
thursday night,
we almost fell asleep mid-way through Kingdom of Heaven.
before the theatre, the amoy at the ticketing counter looked at me over and asked me carefully "You know its NC-16?"
me: "Yeah"
amoy: "Show me your IC"
me: #%^@$%%&&!!!! *hands over*
you: laughs out loud
amoy: laughs too. "But you look so young!"
and i swear i heard the whole of singapore laughing at me too. arses. LOL.
so i still dont pass for a 16. and im turning 20 this year.
scary mary.
any tips?
because i dont wish to look like a bloody minor on my wedding day.
that would be the most worst woman's nightmare ever.
not that im getting married in 5 years time.
i still have to hunt down that perfect permanent job, you know?
NIE!!!!!!! ARGH.
to the most beloved one whom i nearly lost:
Things change yet so much stays the same
Lifes just a dream we have of reality
Love's strength enhances what we have
And then strips us of our sanity
Still I stay
Growing strong
Every day
Closer to you.....
Tuesday, May 10
so seductive
spca was great fun.
we boarded at the wrong stop as usual.
we witnessed an auntie being swung around in her bus seat and getting her head knocked violently onto the bus' metal railing. sheesh.
eliz found a new darling, Angel, whose in demand of 4 others okay.
not surprising cuz the doggie is a real honey, she even placed her teeny weeny paw on eliz' hand. we damn the new lucky owner. lol.
+click for better viewing & more pix delights+
they look compatible heh?
while i fell in love with this ferocious-looking kitten,Sally, who meowed like hell freezes over.
she only stopped meowing when i stuck my hand through the cage's railings and sayang2 her. awww. she's actually such a sweetheart!
she started meowing back only when i moved my hand away. aww.
we're most definitely going there again very soon.
its raining like mad outside.
i feel like a lazy tabbycat. but have to go work laaa. or else no income. bah.
Kumon, here we come!
Monday, May 9
freed.
its official. ive finally graduated.
click on pix below to view the graduation show pixxy.
(thanks to my sis and her cam. more to come from ctza and the fusion's photographer, Rene. so do come back for updates yeap.)
well,so this is it, munirah. no more hell.
but why do i feel so... strange? like, neither here nor there?
its not like i dont have any plans in my hands.
but.
but...
oh well.
im just a lil nifty scared. about what lies ahead now.
im seriously restless thinking about it.
if i dont get out and do something, i'll just rot.
and when the hell is NIE gonna reply?!
i need an answer so i can plot the next step, you know?
in the meantime, ill just start back working at Kumon. take mandarin classes.
catch up with frens. send resumes to companies. spend more time appreciating sam. make more blog layouts. read good novels. learn more dishes. clean my pig sty room.
yeah.
ill survive this i guess. what with strong,loving people around me.
so now i guess i better bathe and get ready soon to meet eliz for SPCA.
yeah,ive got plans alrite =)
Friday, May 6
gila morning updates:
my graduation show's open to the public today(12-9pm) and tomorrow(10-2pm), NYP's auditorium.
no age limit, no dress code.
so those who are coming,warning, i do not have your contacts! (*due to HP being stolen)
so just come show your pretty handsome faces la, set?
okay cool.
to kinah, thank you for the lovely lipgloss and eyeshadow !!!! *muaks*
and thank you to mr policeman for the spontaneous very early morning wake-up call today ;)
my graduation show's open to the public today(12-9pm) and tomorrow(10-2pm), NYP's auditorium.
no age limit, no dress code.
so those who are coming,warning, i do not have your contacts! (*due to HP being stolen)
so just come show your pretty handsome faces la, set?
okay cool.
to kinah, thank you for the lovely lipgloss and eyeshadow !!!! *muaks*
and thank you to mr policeman for the spontaneous very early morning wake-up call today ;)
Thursday, May 5
officially fried.
so much so for makin this layout few days ago in conjuction of my grad show and the chapter of a beautiful dmd-free life starting soon.
MY HANDPHONE WAS STOLEN IN THE AUDITORIUM YESTERDAY.
i am neither awake nor asleep.
ive been relying on two or less hours of sleep lately.
I CANT WAIT FOR THIS TO BE OVER.
I WISH TO KICK THAT ASSWIPE'S BALLS FOR STEALING WHEN WE'RE ALREADY IN A SHITTY STATE LIKE THIS.
its a wonder amidst the buzz and stress of setting up booths, there are/is still extra-long hands/hand slithering around. curse you.
i went to the auditorium's ladies.
five minutes later, my handphone's kapoofed. i asked so many frens to call and all they got was my voicemail. so the fark-u idiot actually switched off my hp.
then eliz found out her cash is gone.
and on our way to report to the guard, we found out sandy lost her HP too.
wtf is going on here?????
helloooo, we're already pimpin broke thanks to printing. and now?
i love my handphone. i bought it with my own pay for God's sake.
*sighs miserably*
please, no more shitty happenings please.
let the remaining days of my final year in NYP run smoothly please.
i beg of you.