i dont know how you can move on just like that.
like i was nothing, just another phase of your life.
albeit your promises. the visions we had together.
everyone thought we were meant to be.
but everyone was dumb as me.
they didnt see it coming. neither do i.
this is my last post, before i start anew.
thank you so much for taking away my utmost faith and belief in men, marriages and
true love.
i dont know how and what else i can do to show you that you're THE WHOLE WORLD to me.
not a passerby, not someone who stops and goes away.
someone i thought who would stay forever.
go chase your life's goals. you wanted them so much dont you.
no matter the shit they gave you.
im glad that you're happy with them.
me? im just tired.
it has been sometime. this blogsite has seen me through it all.
i will come back but not to here.
if you guys still want to stay in contact with me, im available at msn/email @
elven_roach@hotmail.com
thank you all.
Sunday, June 19
Tuesday, June 14
HIATUS till its okay.
So you sailed away,
Into a grey sky morning..
Now im here to stay,
Love can be so boring...
Nothing's quite the same now,
i just say your name now..
Well its not so bad,
You're only the best i ever had..
You don't want me back,
You're just the best i ever had..
[vertical horizon - Best i ever Had]
will miss you people.
am gone to the land where the sun will shine again.
its not so bad really.
signing off, nini.
p.s. yeay MJ's found not guilty. so there is hope afterall.
Saturday, June 11
miss you,i will.
you cant force yourself to love someone, cant you?
even though you've been together with that someone for so long, then suddenly, wham bang,you feel that something's missing, something feels so different.in other words, you realize you're no longer in love, you've completely fall out of it.
then my dear confidante, and i know you're reading this,i hope you'll do something
about it.when your gf does the normal gf things,hugs and kisses you,calls or msgs you just to say how much she misses you,to know how you're doing,her genuine smile and caress,and all these simple stuff, they dont make your heart race anymore, they dont seem special or mean anything anymore.
then do something before you really break her hard. she must already feels confused and hurt over your responses, how you've changed into someone else.
but she still loves you so and THATS THE GREATEST PAIN OF ALL.
i wish you all the best, my friend.
yesterday was sameer's advanced 22nd birthday.
i treated him to Star Wars,yes we've finally watched it,yippee yeay.
it was fantastic,a little of comic relief here and there. and it was bloody ironic that LOVE played a big part in the plot. it was great nonetheless and i felt like watching back the other episodes just to complete the cycle again. sameer said they'll definitely come out with a whole dvd set of the whole saga so yep,cant wait for that!
afterthat was ice-cream at swensons. scrumptious stuff.
then i dragged the fella to the daft pinky neoprint shop.ROTFL. kecoh sey.
blame it on my sis la, she got me addicted to that crazy many shots booth the day before.
pix below. laugh you dont, people =)
me and sameer at our very best,heh.
me and my crazy sis at our very best too.
so anybody else who wants to waste 9buckeroos on taking pix,please contact me,
i'll gladly come along and pose with you. sheesh.
almost 90% of my May's pay is kapoof on people. but its worth it la.
GSS is just a big hoo-ha anyway.
BUT STILL, June's pay, just you wait. i'll get myself something.
like new heels. *sighs dreamily*
footnote: strangely, i dont feel like updating this site anymore. i dunno. i just dont feel the enthuasism i had,3 years ago? i feel like starting anew, starting a whole new chapter. but i've to end the current chapter first, dont i? shrugs.
we'll see how it goes.
Saturday, June 4
wrapped in your warmth.
i really wish i didnt scorn my sis about her "the used" craze.
i was like, apa ini another punk rock band chey..pui.
then i accidentally played their "Yesterday's Feelings" and bang.
i think im hooked?
oops.
Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
The worries are washed out to sea
See the changes, people's faces blurred out
Like sunspots or raindrops
Now all those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be
lost in time,
but today ive wasted away for today is on my mind..
last but not least,i owe a big thank you to Shakinah Khan for dutifully been calling me up and listening and entertaining to my zonked shits for the past few days.
babe, you're THE heroine, how you can tahan me,i dont know, but you make wonders! btw,airport girl seyyy. dont forget, shark fins and 10 lipgloss! the 10 lipgloss, ill share with eliz heh so im not that greedy =p
*hugs u like mad*
next week, girlfriends, we'll hang out okay?
next week, when im ready not to spread my horrible disease to you darlings cuz
i miss you all so much!
btw swana if readin this, heard from sam,u & ur darling nak ajak us for double date for Mr and Mrs Smith?
eh bile bile? heh heh heh.
yes, i AM recovering! fever-free. only left flu and cough to terminate.
then GSS, here i come!
p.s. to you you you you you, wish i could stay there forever... thank you.
Wednesday, June 1
butter*FLY
the doctor gave me 5 types of medicine this morning.
with a warning that if i dont recover by friday, i better get my ass down to the clinic again.
and unfortunately, ive passed my terrible flu and sore throat to my dad too.
so he has been "gloomily" staying at home, listening to Class 95 the whole day.
basically i think he's sick cuz of his new Samsung phone, he spent the night yesterday trying to figure out how to msg. LOL.
Ms Canada a.k.a. Miss Universe 2005 is a babe.
Class 95 plays a whole lot of nice,yadayada rilek one corner songs, i wont deny.
ive got no choice cuz my ears are stuck with that station since Dad's in charge.
but this song caught me right in the spot.
its lovely.
I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land
Spread your wings and prepare to fly (fly)
For you have become a butterfly (Ohohohoh)
(Fly) fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me (If you should return to me)
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly...
Mariah Carrey - Butterfly.
now im listening to From the Heart-Another Level. lagu old skool gile bapak =)
tak tahu kenape alih2 tergerak hati nak d/l ini lagu. bynk sungguh memori2 tersirat di dlm lagu ni. haiz.
and wow, im actually smiling?
God,you are The Healer of everything.